May 2011
8 posts
My friends, a chance reader, the Tumblr community, and mostly, to myself,
My life is changing. It is changing such an insane amount and so rapidly that I can’t control it anymore. I’m scared and unsure and I have no plans and for the first time in my life not only is that okay, but it’s exactly what I want, and exactly what I need. With all that has been changing both in and...
I wasn’t daring or adventurous. I was never the type to do something on a whim and worry about the consequences later. I didn’t dream big; why get my hopes up? My entire life, the essence of my state of being, all of the plans in my head could be summed up in one word - practical.
So maybe it was because I needed a vacation from myself. Maybe it was the idea that every good girl...
I’ll be in Washington DC in 6 days.
A little less than a month ago I was in an accident. No one was hurt, but both cars were damaged, hers a few scratches, mine over three thousand dollars worth of damage.
We were both fully aware that there were no traffic cameras, no witnesses, nothing except my word against hers that she ran the light. The officer at the scene told both of us together that it would be entirely up to the...
I think I am beautiful, I think I am intelligent, I think I am strong. Then I am tricked, lied to, deceived, used. Because I think I am beautiful, intelligent, and strong, I think I can leave, and still be all that I thought I was. I cannot exist alone. I cannot exist without you. I don’t know exactly who or what I am without you. I cannot be me without you.
It doesn’t always make...
I do not belong to anyone. I will not exist for another person. My beauty, my intelligence, my personality, and my strength that you often claim I do not have are not for one person to own or control, but for the world to take from in any way I can give. I will not be told how to be. I will not give up me for the sake of you. I will not be tricked, lied to, deceived, or used.
When it does not...
“I like you,” he said, “a lot. And it’s not because of your hair or your make up or the way you dress. So please don’t try to impress me. I like you and nothing is going to change the way I feel about you. You look beautiful, but it doesn’t matter how you look.”
When they told you to always be yourself, and never change for anyone, they failed to mention having self respect will often mean a lot of really lonely nights.