May 2011
8 posts
My friends, a chance reader, the Tumblr community, and mostly, to myself,
My life is changing. It is changing such an insane amount and so rapidly that I can’t control it anymore. I’m scared and unsure and I have no plans and for the first time in my life not only is that okay, but it’s exactly what I want, and exactly what I need. With all that has been changing both in and...
I wasn’t daring or adventurous. I was never the type to do something on a whim and worry about the consequences later. I didn’t dream big; why get my hopes up? My entire life, the essence of my state of being, all of the plans in my head could be summed up in one word - practical.
So maybe it was because I needed a vacation from myself. Maybe it was the idea that every good girl...
I’ll be in Washington DC in 6 days.
A little less than a month ago I was in an accident. No one was hurt, but both cars were damaged, hers a few scratches, mine over three thousand dollars worth of damage.
We were both fully aware that there were no traffic cameras, no witnesses, nothing except my word against hers that she ran the light. The officer at the scene told both of us together that it would be entirely up to the...
I think I am beautiful, I think I am intelligent, I think I am strong. Then I am tricked, lied to, deceived, used. Because I think I am beautiful, intelligent, and strong, I think I can leave, and still be all that I thought I was. I cannot exist alone. I cannot exist without you. I don’t know exactly who or what I am without you. I cannot be me without you.
It doesn’t always make...
I do not belong to anyone. I will not exist for another person. My beauty, my intelligence, my personality, and my strength that you often claim I do not have are not for one person to own or control, but for the world to take from in any way I can give. I will not be told how to be. I will not give up me for the sake of you. I will not be tricked, lied to, deceived, or used.
When it does not...
“I like you,” he said, “a lot. And it’s not because of your hair or your make up or the way you dress. So please don’t try to impress me. I like you and nothing is going to change the way I feel about you. You look beautiful, but it doesn’t matter how you look.”
When they told you to always be yourself, and never change for anyone, they failed to mention having self respect will often mean a lot of really lonely nights.
April 2011
26 posts
I see you in all of your suffering, and again in all of your glory. You’re something like a Jekyll and Hyde with the stars always in your eyes. I’ll watch you ‘till you run away, and when they say good riddance, I’ll say only half the time.
Girl, what you don’t understand is that hating me more won’t make your boyfriend like me any less.
I'm scared shitless of growing up.
Last year was the most exciting birthday of my life. And I’ve been dreading this one for the last 365.
An ugly personality can destroy a pretty face.
Maybe growing up isn’t as dreadful as it seems.
I will not base my life decisions around my best friend, around my sister’s opinions, and especially not some boy. I will not give up my dreams for money nor give up my morals for fame. I will live within the words of my parents and never forget who I want to be. I will become something new, original, and amazing. I will not only do good in this world, but I will make it my mission to...
I know how it sounds, and I know it's cliche
but I’m changing my life, and I’m starting today.
i am that girl →
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Me: When you tell me stories about you growing up, it makes me wonder how you made it as far as you did.
Dad: Yeah, natural selection just never caught up with us. We should have been dead decades ago.
This is going to be good.
I used to know this girl who was a few years older than me. When she was 17 she went behind her mother’s back and went looking for her father who she’d never met. She found him, cities away, in a trailer park.
A drunk, he had multiple tumors on his liver. Months later, he went in to surgery after drinking all night. Days later, after multiple blood transfusions because of all of the...
Two nights ago, after over six months, everything just kind of hit me. I finally came to terms with the fact that you were never coming home. I stopped blaming you, stopped missing you, and stopped hating you. All at once, all of the sudden, I was okay with it.
Then, today, as if you’d heard what I was doing, and to prove to me I will never really forgive you, and that I can never really...
Rude Cake: Question. →
rudecake:
So… if a guy you kind of have a crush on puts up a status on facebook asking if anyone has a series of a show he likes and you download seven seasons of this show you’ve never heard of, put it on your external harddrive alongside a selection of your favourite movies to give him tomorrow and…
I love this.
Exhausted, she leaned back against the wall and let her head fall. She swallowed hard, the taste of her mouth made her gag and cough. She remembered the video in health class her freshman year. A monotoned voice explained the path stomach acid burned in the esophagus and the way it ate at tooth enamel when it came up. She thought it was a small price to pay for everything she was gaining. This...
“My cousin Helen, who is in her 90s now, was in the Warsaw ghetto during World...”
– Neil Gaiman (via archangelsarefierce)
I'm not afraid of you.
I’m afraid of becoming you.
The difference between you and I, Is I’ll never play with your mind, And I’ll tell you the truth, never lies., I guess this is my goodbye
"You look at me like you could save me. You could,...
He's wonderful and sweet and perfect
and, like all of the wonderful, sweet, perfects before him, I just have no interest in the boy.
“Do I have a girlfriend? We technically, no.”
Am I the only girl that can hear each of my ex boyfriends saying this line?
Things are gonna change, and I'm no exception.
“There’s just no class left in the world.”
– My dad (:
March 2011
11 posts
He’s the kind of boy that could change my life. This time, I feel like I have nothing to lose.
Things get real. Life gets scary.
I have two short little scenes like this that I want to expand into a short story for my creative writing class. It’s a really tough choice. ):
It was one of those really warm evenings that made you remember why you waited all year for summer to come. We sat facing east on a concrete bridge with the sun setting behind our backs. We could have sat on the other side of the bridge and...
Please don't leave with her tonight.
So then he asked me why I would want to be with someone who wasn’t motivated, edging toward success, and making it like him and I were. That was the one thing we had always thought we saw in one another. I considered this for a while and, for the first time, answered him honestly.
It wasn’t that he had other attributes that made up for these shortcomings. It was these shortcomings...
February 2011
23 posts
I don’t think I’ve ever not regretted adding a family member on Facebook.
